| I realized I haven't written really anything productive on my xanga for a long time. Therefore, I feel I should engraved my thoughts of the past year onto this one entry. To some of you who are reading this, I hope you dont my preaching for this is an inspiration from me to myself and you.
Coming to Europe, I realized many life's gifts and the standard of life that many of us endure can be easily taken granted. This place has taught me there are many things to learn in this world. Graduation wasn't the end but rather, the beginning to broaden our horizons. I suppose one of the reasons why I left the United States is to become overwhelmed with what is out there. To be honest about one thing. Going to Taiwan and then Europe straight after graduation, isn't easy to do on ur own. Taiwan will always be Taiwan to me and everyone understands the great convenience and hostility there. Hungary is not the same picture and is a completely different world. People aren't always kind here and it is hard to go around an environment that you cant speak or read their language. I have never made so many gestures in my life this year compared to all the years combined prior. In a way, this was a vacation from my life.. Although I worked diligently here, I didn't want to be pushed to my extreme until I reached a self-realization about myself. In one year, I can say a lot has happened to me and my view will never be the same as it was when I was a fresh graduate. However, this isn't something to be directed as negative but rather, something positive. I have become influenced to be more aggressive and it is quite ironic but I felt like a leader to certain individuals in this environment. I never thought I would unexpectingly be like that in my social and personal life. This was all the thanks to some of the people I was close to in Chicago. I realized from the environment in Chicago, being surrounded by the top-notch people who are extremely focused and hard working people. i wont mention your names, *you guys know who you are*.. I have become influenced by my last year's environment more than I have thought. I always felt like the weakest link and I know everyone has this feeling *I'm not doing enough, people are far ahead*.. but if you sit back and look at yourself, we're simply disregarding our true and natural capabilities. rather if it's love, work, or oneself...
I am leaving here in a month. I will visit my sister in Frankfort and will begin the long road in my career. This time, i realized I'm not too young anymore but yet I am not by all means mature enough. I have a lot to learn, a lot to endure, and a lot to earn. This nice break from my life has been great~ and I am reaching the finish line to my self-realization phase or whatever you would call it. I have understood my mistakes, my flaws, but as well as my achievements and strength. I know what I want and I know what it's going to take. For some of you who are interested in my plans, I am going to work *possibly Singapore or United States*.. If nothing turns out at Singapore, then I am going back home guys.. I plan to work for another year or two, then get myself into MBA school asap. To me, this will be hard and take a lot of my time and energy. But it is my goal. To those of you who are reading this, I'm sure every single one of you have incredible and impressive goals. Dont listen to anyone else but yourself and the people who know you best. Stop doubting yourself and keep pushing towards your goal. Let your loved ones be your motivation and let whatever inspires you to be kept safely inside of you. I plan to see many of you in the next few years being accomplished people. I want to say "congratulations,_______" GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully the next time I see some of you, I'll accomplish mine as well. |
